I’m suffering a commitment Phobic~

Assalamualaikum,

Since I’ve been ‘single’ for quite some time, so I’ve been thinking about starting a new relationship. Yup. It started already. Even it wasn’t official yet, but its progressing. Everything is smooth and sound until ‘it’ occuring again. *_* What can u expect from a phobic????

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I’ve posted about marriage and commitment last year (you can browse back my past post or click here https://chicwannabe.wordpress.com/2011/11/22/marriage-and-commitment-phobia-symptoms/).

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Ya Allah,Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan, Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku , Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku, Titipkanlah kebahagiaan, Ya Allah, ku mohon apa yang telah Kau takdirkan , Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku, Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku, Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu , Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah ,Beri kekuatan jua harapan , Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya , Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa , Ku pasrah kepadaMu , Kurniakanlah aku , Pasangan yang beriman , Bisa menemani aku , Supaya ku dan dia , Dapat melayar bahtera, Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai, Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih ,Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku , Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini , Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri ,Agarku bisa bahagia , Walau tanpa bersamanya , Gantikanlah yang hilang ,Tumbuhkan yang telah patah , Ku inginkan bahagia ,Di dunia dan akhirat , PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala

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I’m so stupid to think that I can overcome my fear when it just happened naturally. None can accept me for who I am nor none can changed me to overcome my phobic. I just feel much worser when I started blaming myself for being a phobic. Arrgghh. I’m so helpless… There’s no cure for my ‘disease’. I just need to stay far so that I won’t hurt anyone ever again. I wont say much cause there’s nothing left to be said. Maybe single for the better me & for your own happiness…

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p/s : there’s nothing wrong in you. You really are completing my life. But I just dont know what to do. . . I’m sorry dear

Posted on June 20, 2012, in 2012~ hope shine on me, About A Guy. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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